It’s been an interesting time for me. Of course, interesting is often a way of saying difficult or challenging.
The Mother has a great way of giving you the lessons you need. Sometimes they’re not fun and sometimes they’re down-right painful. I had a series of dreams with Na’amah – the Queen of Demons in it. At the time I wondered why I was seeing her in vision and what I was to learn?
A dark night of the soul is never pretty. It can be the most painful experience we go through because it makes us question everything we do, what we think, and even our purpose. The last couple months have been a series of events that has given me a complete shift in my perspective.
What I’m learning is that “doing” isn’t nearly as important as “being”. I know that seems obvious and something that I already “know”, but it’s becoming an experience for me and not just an idea. There is so much I want to do with my team at work and so much I want to do with the Circle. The idea is great… The intent all positive…. But the problem is that when getting things done becomes so important that you lose sight of the why, it starts to become meaningless.
Unfortunately, we just can’t stop everything. Life continues – things do need done. I can’t quit my job. Well – I guess I could, but that would probably mean I would need to think about housing on the side of I35 and dumpster diving for my dinner. Seriously, I actually like part of my job… I’m good at it, I have lots of great people, and I get to travel. I can’t stop “doing” things for the Circle. Without action, we can’t help others and nothing would ever happen.
I’m realizing that refocusing on only priorities is the most important thing we can. Finding our calling and focusing on the tasks that go with it are the key to being effective. Otherwise we burn out, lose focus, and accomplish little no matter how much we “do”.
At work I have narrowed down to the four core areas my team is tasked with and am moving everything else out of my team. At Circle I intend to do the same thing. As a Circle we will focus on our calling and as an individual I will do the same. It’s about doing the will of the Mother and making a difference, not about “how much” we get done.
Expect to hear more soon!
Blessings, Yonah
